Hey everyone, it's me!
I had planned to talk about my task to clean out my closet, which took up almost the entire day today, but I didn't finish it so that post will have to wait until it's entirely done. Aside from that, I spent the day playing Stardew Valley, a Harvest Moon-like game that I greatly enjoy. Anyone who is reading this that hasn't played it I recommend you go do it. I'll give a more in-depth review in another post.
As for right now, today's post will be a short one but one I enjoy nonetheless. I don't think it's going to be any kind of exciting since it's not a story or a list or anything besides a recounting of my day, but that's okay! the important part is posting.
After I get done with this post, I think I'm going to go re-read Flowers in the Attic by V.C. Andrews for a bit, then maybe try to write something? Though to be honest, this late at night, the writing will probably more likely happen tomorrow. But that's all right.
I'm thinking about trying to get up earlier than usual and go for a walk tomorrow. I want to wear my new white dress with the black polka-dots and rose design at the bottom (I have some shoes I think will look great with it, even though they're blue and there's not a hint of blue anywhere on the dress) but I don't have a parasol that would match the outfit. That being said I'm probably going to take my new coffin purse too so . . . YEAH! Ooh yeah! That'll look great! Creepy cute! Pastel goth all the way! Let's mix together the elegant beauty of what might look to some people like a Sunday best dress and a coffin purse/backpack and a Nightmare Before Christmas umbrella for a parasol! I'll take my library book with me and sit down at the gazebo and just listen to the low sounds of the park.
Today, and last night, and hopefully for the rest of forever, I'm feeling very relaxed and princess-y. I feel like the urgency of everything has slowed down and allowed me to luxuriate in the concept of just being alive. I feel like there's no need to rush, to worry about anything. As someone with anxiety, allowing myself to wallow in the feeling of being a princess really calms me down and helps alleviate what would otherwise be a crippling way to live.
I think that's why I like Lolita so much. The feeling of being a princess, of doing Lolita-related activities, of conversing with my fellow Lolitas, helps my depression and anxiety in a way that nothing else can. I want to live my life like I'm living in a fairy tale. I want to be the happiest person I can be. I think I'm well on the way to achieving that goal!