Sunday, October 7, 2018

Dragon Age and Rainy Sundays

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It's not exactly raining yet, but it's supposed to start any minute, and because Sunday has always been our day to do nothing at all I plan to spend it playing Dragon Age: Origins. I lit my (barely) vanilla candle, wrapped up in my Nightmare Before Christmas Jack Skellington snuggie and my heated blanket, and am just waiting for DA:O to install on my computer so I can play.
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The air is starting to get cold again. Yesterday I had to wear my black fleece tights when we went out instead of some lighter tights, not that I minded because I love my black fleece tights. They're so warm and comfy!

For the last two days, the sky has been gray and covered with clouds, which Danny and I both love. We're definitely dreary weather people. Our seasonal depression gets worse in the summer when its too hot and the sunny days seem to never end. In the winter, I still get depressed but it's so much easier to pull me out of it.

I'm also going to be thinking about my NaNoWriMo project. I told myself I would keep working on other stuff and then worry about NaNo when November starts, but I find myself unable to stop thinking about it. Every year I try to participate in NaNoWriMo even if I can't make the write-ins (they're always deeper in the city than I'm comfortable going, so I usually don't go) and even if I don't win. If I ever don't participate for any reason, November just doesn't feel quite right.

Just in case you're not aware, NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month, is an event in November when writers do one simple thing: You try to write a 50,000-word novel in 30 days. The website breaks each day down into reasonable 1,666-word increments that you can absolutely surpass if you want. 1,666 is just the minimum word-count for each day. The idea is to get people writing every day because, for some people, the only thing keeping them from writing is thinking that they don't have the time or for those who have trouble sticking to it.

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This year I'm going to work on a fantasy project I've been playing around with in my head for a while now. I chose that one because I'd like to actually, you know, do it and with NaNoWriMo you don't really have a chance to overthink anything because you need to get it done. Overthinking is my worse enemy so being put in a position where I don't have that luxury has always helped.

I never really do outlines, which a lot of people suggest for NaNoWriMo. Maybe that's a bad thing, maybe it's not, I don't know. I only work sort of okay with outlines. The method I'm best at, in my opinion, is writing by the seat of my pants. Working from a vague concept and discovering it along the way. Learning about the world alongside my characters.

George R. R. Martin described these two kinds of writers more beautifully than I think I could.

“I think there are two types of writers, the architects and the gardeners. The architects plan everything ahead of time, like an architect building a house. They know how many rooms are going to be in the house, what kind of roof they're going to have, where the wires are going to run, what kind of plumbing there's going to be. They have the whole thing designed and blueprinted out before they even nail the first board up. The gardeners dig a hole, drop in a seed and water it. They kind of know what seed it is, they know if planted a fantasy seed or mystery seed or whatever. But as the plant comes up and they water it, they don't know how many branches it's going to have, they find out as it grows. And I'm much more a gardener than an architect.”

And with that, I think I'm going to end this post. If anyone joins NaNoWriMo this year, let me know in the comments! I'll follow you on the website! My username is: littleflowerlei


Friday, October 5, 2018

A New Me

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I'm really excited lately. I've been thinking about reinventing myself, though how that is I'm still thinking about. I want to update my style (and, you know, find one lol) and go through my whole wardrobe and decide what I'm going to keep and what I'm going to put in storage. I've done this before but I feel like this is the kind of thing that needs to be done as a person grows and changes between times. A lot of what I'm going to put in storage are probably the t-shirts I don't wear. There are some (like my "Daryl Addixon" shirt) that are going to remain in my wardrobe no matter what. But there are others that relatives have given me that I haven't worn and never plan to. I'm going to develop my style not as one single one but as a menagerie of things I love even if it goes from goth to pastel to lolita to whateverthefuckelse. No more trying to put myself in a box. 

My next plan is to try and learn how to relax about my work. I know I talk about this a lot but I need to realize that things aren't as serious, life-or-death as I let myself think. I need to remember that no matter what, my work is good enough. That it doesn't have to be PERFECT (a product of my failed attempts to traditionally publish and having been told that it needs to be as close to perfect as I can get it, and yet still being denied because lets be honest my work back then was far from what it is now) and I don't have to work 24/7 to be able to do it. I'm allowed to have fun. I'm allowed to make mistakes. No one is going to slit my throat over it. Hell, most people probably wouldn't notice or care. Maybe if I can do that I can put out more content instead of spending a year or two obsessing over one single thing. 

The next thing is going to take some work, I think, but I'd like to do something to fight against my social anxiety. I hate being around people. Even people I like. I wanna stop that.

And, of course, the same one everyone says: I want to fix my diet (which admittedly has improved a lot already) and my fitness. We're moving into a house and we plan to turn one of the bedrooms into a gym, so that'll be a lot easier to achieve. Because of the above mentioned social anxiety, I hate going to public gyms. Also, I just hate leaving the house in general. I want to be able to do it on my own schedule. So I'm thinking that since I now get off work at 10, I might come home and work out in our new gym (once we have it) for maybe an hour or so before I settle down to enjoy the night. It'll be so much better than trying to work around a gym's schedule. 

Of course there's probably a lot more, but for right now these are the major things I'm thinking about. Mostly I just want to have a fun, beautiful life. Luckily that's entirely up to me and is absolutely attainable!   

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

💖 A Ramble 💖

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I'm so excited about everything. Moving day is coming up quicker and quicker. I've thought about how I want to do my new office and our house is going to be awesome

I also decided I'm going to allow myself a break from trying to be productive until after we move. My current office just isn't doing it for me anymore and I just can't make my brain work here. So I'm going to focus on reading, crafts, gaming, maybe do some outlines--and if I feel inspired, then cool I'll sit down to work. But any serious work will probably wait until I get my new office

Plus I mean I think I earned a break. Cause I DID just finish a piece this month lol.

Update Post!

So I have a lot to update you guys on that I haven't had time to do until now. August was a hard month for us here and I haven't had the time/energy/motivation to update the blog until today.

First update: We're moving! 

If you follow me on Instagram then you already know that Danny and Salem and I are moving into his parents' old house in October. We have to break our lease to do it and one of the issues we've had in August was to find the money to be able to do this, as we are not the kind of people who have $2,000 just laying around.

Luckily our friend Kathy, who inherited quite a lot of money from a late relative, offered to help us pay it. She said she would give us the full amount no problem. Of course, we insisted on paying her back, but we were incredibly grateful for that little piece of hope she gave us for this.

Any extra energy we've had between the other stuff that happened this month and our day jobs has been put into packing up the apartment. We're steadily being surrounded by mountains of boxes once again, and we have to pick up the pace because as of today we have only about a month to get everything done before move-in day, but we're planning on doing a huge packing marathon on Saturday. Really make a big push.

Second Update: I finished The A&E Experiment! 

Yes! It's true! I finished The A&E Experiment a couple of weeks back. It happened while I was in the midst of being sick, toothachy, and having a root canal to fix the toothache problem knock me on my ass, so the amount of celebrating was much smaller than I would've liked, but we went out to eat at Olive Garden to celebrate that and the moving so it's not as if it went unacknowledged!

When will it be released? I haven't decided yet.

Okay so I guess there wasn't that much to update you guys on, but what there is is big news!

Saturday, August 11, 2018

Stars Without Number Night ~ ~ ~ Creating Fleur

Tonight was Stars without Number night, and since we had our friend Stephen missing, we decided to play the side campaign. We had to create knights/merlins for the story. Danny helped me build my character, a princess knight I've named Fleur (because come on, you know me. Of course she's a princess). In my head I picture her looking like the pictures below. Two of which I know are Estelle from the Tales of Vesperia games: 

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Fleur has power armor, which I like because her armor is going to be like a small dress like the ones in the above pictures wtih leggings and boots, but has incredible strength and protective power. She has a laser pistol for her sidearm. 

Everyone had to pick a legendary sword to have as their own, and Fleur's is Dyrnwyn. According to legend, Dyrnwyn is a sword that bursts into flames and will aid the user if their cause is noble, but if its not then the flame will consume them. 

Pretty fucking rad if I say so myself. 

I'm so excited to start playing Fleur! Especially now that I have my cute new pink dice! 

Saturday, July 14, 2018

Writing Update: The A&E Experiment!

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Project: The A&E Experiment
Deadline: August 3 [self-imposed]
New words written: 1,783
Present total word count: 79,686

Things accomplished in real life: Danny and I went to the mall today to shop for accessories, and we found the beeeeest necklaces and earrings and the cutest pink garters with heart-shaped metal bits in the front. Danny and I love shopping together even if HotTopic makes him feel claustrophobic. He's told me before that he likes shopping with me because it's a great way to be able to spend time together, especially since shopping is one of my favorite things to do. If I'm ever not lazy, I'll put up a haul post!

Things accomplished in fiction: We're getting down to the end! Ther'es maybe two or three scenes left, so I'm hoping it can get done before the weekend is over, but because I'm feeling bad (gotta love that time of the month!) I'm giving myself a little longer before I have to have it done. It's already been going on for like three years so I'm ready to bring it to an end. I'll do a post or something about the story behind why its taken me so long some other time. But yeah! We just found out some important stuff that is going to take us down to the ending soon! 
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Sourpuss Clothing Unboxing #1

I call this "Sourpuss Clothing Unboxing #1" because I know there will be so many more after this, which should right there tell you about how much I absolutely love that brand. 

Two years ago I bought a pair of high-waisted sailor pants from a small store here in town that I thought was its own brand, but recently I realized that they were Sourpuss Clothing brand shorts and that those shorts were my first taste of how much I was going to grow to love Sourpuss. 

Sourpuss sells vintage-inspired goth attire. Psychobilly/Gothabilly mostly, but there are other stuff too that is more on the rockabilly side. If you're into that kind of alternative stuff (ad they have housewares and accessories and so much more than just clothes) you should definitely go check them out!

Anyway, on to the unboxing. 

I had a hard time getting my hands on my stuff, but it by no means had anything to do with Sourpuss. 

My husband and I both work nights. I leave at 2 and he leaves at 3:30, and I was hoping that they would come sometime before he left. I texted him at 4 to see if he got it and he said he didn't, so I had a sinking feeling in my gut that it would either be left outside for eight hours or they would take it to the UPS store. At the time I thought the only UPS store was miles and miles away from our apartment and would take a hike up to a whole other town just to get my package. As it turns out I was wrong and there's one here in town and that next day before I went to work I went to go get it. I was already furious because I was hormonal and I didn't want to wait another day for my package when UPS promised it would be here on Tuesday. 

But when I went in, they told me it would be sometime after noon that the driver should arrive to drop it off. 

He didn't come until 1:45. Too late for me to swing by and grab it before I went to work, because if I'm not gone by at least 2, I'm almost definitely going to be late. So I had to wait another day. I ended up not getting it until Thursday morning. 

Once again, this had nothing to do with Sourpuss. Their shipping department is fantastic about getting the packages out as quickly as possible and everything was safely put in the box so nothing happened to anything I bought. This was entirely a UPS issue. 

Sourpuss's products are incredibly cute and incredibly high quality. I have a spiderweb parasol from them that I love more than anything in the world because it's just so cute. The pillows I got are so cute, exactly as shown on the website (if not better!) and I never think twice when I order from them. I can't sing their praises loud enough. 

Here are the things I got, links included: 





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Needless to say I will probably keep ordering from them until the day they close their doors for good. Sourpuss is one of my top-tier favorite brands and I can't stress enough how much I love them!

And this is how I arranged my pillows in the palace! 

Dragon Age and Rainy Sundays